wall-object concept animation

How might choice and chance be affecting seeing and being and to what extent are my language 'thoughtfeelings' culturally conditioned?
Am I fundamentally and immutably predisposed, not 'who am I, where am I going?' but 'am I going where who I am?'.
Could there be an immunity from finding meaning, a neutrality of perception, a wall-object?

-How might choice and chance be affecting seeing and being?

Here, conscious action and conscious inaction represent choice. Unconscious action and unconscious inaction, their influence on all things being unknown, might be chance.
The red line, 'subjective perception of position relative to all things' is the interpretation over a period of time of our 'being' on our surroundings (all things) or 'what am I happening to?'.
The black dot, 'actual position and all things' might be the unknown consequence of our unconscious actions and inactions on our surroundings (all things) or 'what's happening to me?'.

-To what extent are my language 'thoughtfeelings' culturally conditioned?

The black dot, 'CONCEPT MOMENT' refers here to a triggering of associative meaning by sensations at a point in time.
The blue line 'EXTENT AND ORIENTATION OF REACTION' shows the relative magnitude of diametrically opposed 'thoughtfeelings' caused by 'CONCEPT MOMENT' in terms of positive or negative, 'GOOD' or 'BAD' and shown in the above view as adjacent but unconnected. To move between these two states lies the possibility of finding 'GOOD AND BAD' as either the position 'both good and bad' or neutral 'neither good nor bad'.
The orange scale 'EXTERNAL AND INTERNAL CONCEPTS' is the flow of time and in this case involves the sensed triggers: RAIN, TORTOISE, ANAL, FALLING, TERROR, BACKWARDS, SEE, HAVE, WALL, SOMETIMES, CLEVERLY.

-Am I fundamentally and immutably predisposed, not 'who am I, where am I going?' but 'am I going where who I am?'.

I was going out but I was delayed and then I heard a noise from downstairs, my neighbours, in a public display of emotion, were beating each other up.
What conscious/unconscious choices did I make that put me in the place to see this happening? Are the same conscious/unconscious choices in use all the time?
Might anyone be sensitive to things that were thought of as outside their control (chance) and were in fact affecting subconscious decisions?
Have we self-censored the extent of our personal responsibility for our surroundings (all things) distributing experiences into culturally conditioned active-passive and conveniently unexplored, abstruse grey areas of existence.
If we can know our program, can we change it?

-Could there be an immunity from finding meaning, a neutrality of perception, a wall-object?